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20 May 2013 @ 08:08 pm
Deb Morgan character study vid: Skin  
SKIN_Deb character study

Characters: Deb Morgan, Dexter Morgan, Harry Morgan, Maria LaGuerta, Frank Lundy and others
Fandom: Dexter
Song: Skin
Artist: Sixx A.M.
Spoilers: S1-S7
File Size: 83 mb
Summary: Deb in all her flaws and glory :-)
Download links: sendspace
Streaming: at youtube

Notes: Deb is definitely one of my top favorite tv-characters of all time. I’ve been dreaming of making a character study vid focusing on her for a long time now, and I’m glad I finally had inspiration to. She is one of the most under-appreciated   characters, who deserves to be vidded, loved, and understood better imo. She often gets criticized for her emotional vulnerability/eagerness for open human connection in earlier seasons, naivety. Her inner world gets subtly reflected in her eyes… and is many-layered and so vast – I think even a dozen  vids couldn’t do it justice fully. So here is my humble attempt to plunge into Deb’s unique world full of inner conflict, one that is very different from Dexter’s and yet so compelling for me to get glimpses of every now and then.
Honestly, I have no words to convey the beauty of Deb’s strong spirit, her ability to love unconditionally and persevere through hardship over and over again. I could only attempt to capture some of it through vidding.

Comments are always appreciated.

Lyrics below

Paint yourself a picture of what you wish you looked like
Maybe then they just might feel an ounce of your pain
Come into focus step out of the shadows it's a losing battle
There's no need to be ashamed

Cause they don't even know you all they see is scars
They don't see the angel living in your heart
Let them find the real you buried deep within
Let them know with all you've got that you are not your skin

And when they start to judge you show them your true colors
And do one to others as you'd have done to you just rise above this
Kill them with your kindness ignorance is blindness
They're the ones that stands to lose

Cause they don't even know you all they see is scars
They don't see the angel living in your heart
Let them find the real you buried deep within
Let them know with all you've got that you are not your skin

Well they don't even know you all they see is scars
They don't see the angels living in your heart
Let them find the real you buried deep within
Let them know with all you've got that you are not your skin
you're still going to the party, bitch: dexter: debmammothluv on May 20th, 2013 05:31 pm (UTC)
This is fantastic. You captured her so well.
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 21st, 2013 06:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you! She is such a pleasure to watch in action and vid :)
falafel_musings: dexterfalafel_musings on May 20th, 2013 05:57 pm (UTC)
Excellent Deb tribute. I love the song choice and your clip choices were perfectly balanced to exhibit both the sweetness and hardness of Debra. Loved it!

Edited at 2013-05-20 05:57 pm (UTC)
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 21st, 2013 06:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks a lot for watching and commenting! I'm glad you enjoyed it and I'm glad if I managed to capture different sides of her complex character!
Becka: anakin solo tears from a starbeccatoria on May 20th, 2013 08:21 pm (UTC)
I saw this in the premieres show - it's spectacular! It was one of my favourite vids all weekend. It's such a brilliant study of the character. You capture her physicality flawlessly: expansive and awkwardly, tightly drawn inward at the same time.

Fantastic vid - I really, really enjoyed it.
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 21st, 2013 07:19 pm (UTC)
Oh hi Becka! :-) It's nice to hear from you! I'm so happy you liked the vid at the premiers! It's a great compliment. Deb's energy and body language is amazingly nuanced indeed. It's been a pleasure to see and explore her journey through vidding. I think I might vid her again one day... or maybe her and Dexter as it's one hell of messy relationship they have.

I wish I was there at VidUKon too watching vids with you. Deb is an absolutely amazing character on tv nowhadays I think. She slays me with her emotional honesty and openness. Of course it's my personal prejudice speaking but seriously... I rarely see such a strong performance as Jennifer Carpenter manages to pull off these days and also such a story... I just hope she doesn't get raped or doesn't end up killing herself at the end. Not another Kara Thrace kind of story please...)
Becka: chick with gunbeccatoria on June 1st, 2013 10:07 am (UTC)
Sorry for the late reply - I didn't realise I didn't have comment notifications on at livejournal anymore! But yes, I definitely agree about Jennifer Carpenter's performance and your hopes for her character arc...

I wish you could have come to Vidukon too! It was great to meet you last time! I had a great conversation with brokenmnemonic about this vid and how much we wished you were there (I think I may have accused him of holding out on me for not spoiling me for your premiere's awesomeness!) :) So you were there in spirit at least!

I'm just about to (FINALLY) post my Vidukon recs at my journal, this will totally be there!

Edited at 2013-06-01 10:10 am (UTC)
Mass of Contradictions: Camilla Belle in the windpassionrlsusall on May 20th, 2013 08:26 pm (UTC)
Good video. It really captures a lot of what she goes through throughout the show.
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 21st, 2013 07:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you for letting me know you watched and liked the vid! Deb's journey is such an emotional roller coster... a golden mine to vid really. :-)
lilly_the_kidlilly_the_kid on May 20th, 2013 08:36 pm (UTC)
I just finished season 7 a few days ago, so this came at the perfect time. What an awesome vid! I love Deb and I love how you vidded her, it's perfect!
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 21st, 2013 07:08 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! I'm happy the timing is just right for you to have seen the vid. I love Deb too. Very much. I probably watch the show for her journey more than anything else now.

And S7 was a huge hit in the chest for me in terms of Deb's storyline. What she does for Dex at the end is beyond words imo... And such a huge trauma she'll have to live with daily now. I thought her getting tricked by the Ice Truch Killer was the most horrendous thing that could happen to her once, then Lundy's death... now I was proven wrong again, there's something even worse. I'm really worried about Deb in the upcoming S8.

Anyway... thanks again for your feedback! Deb love must be shared! :-)
thrace_adams: BSG Kara Thinking on New Capricathrace_adams on May 22nd, 2013 07:40 pm (UTC)
This was breathtaking! I don't watch the show, but your vids are so good (been watching them since BSG) that I had to give this one a shot and DAMN just brilliant work as always!
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_Lee Adama loves mem_a_r_i_k_s on May 23rd, 2013 08:00 am (UTC)
Oh thank you dear! Wow, if I managed to move someone who doesn't even watch the show and doesn't know Deb by this vid - it's the best kind of compliment in a way).

And BSG remains my number one show... No other pairing as powerful as pilots out there, to me. I'm actually collaborating on another BSG vid with someone at the moment. I kind of wonder why I never get tired of it))).
thrace_adams: BSG Kara Lee shooting in the rainthrace_adams on May 23rd, 2013 03:02 pm (UTC)
Yeah, your vid makes me want to watch the show lOL. I'm thinking about adding it to our LONG list of shows to catch up on.

Boy are you right about that. Lee/Kara was by far one of the best pairings out there. Oh a new BSG vid? I can't wait!!! Hope you don't mind, I'm gonna add you as a friend so I don't miss it :D
m_a_r_i_k_s: Lee_miniseriesm_a_r_i_k_s on May 23rd, 2013 08:55 pm (UTC)
Dexter is an excellent show in the first two seasons,, definitely has some writing issues in later seasons but still its dramatic moments make it worth watching for me... And Deb and Dexter's story of course.

Hehe. You sound like me, still excited about anything that has to do with pilots. :D
Of course I don't mind :) *friends back*
brokenmnemonic: CdL - Onion Girlbrokenmnemonic on May 22nd, 2013 07:50 pm (UTC)
It was great getting to see this on the big screen in the Premieres show - it's such a great vid, and everyone I spoke to about it really liked it.

You've heard me expound at some length, given that I was lucky enough to see it well ahead of time. I'm so glad you finished it - it's such a strong reflection of the affection you have for Deb; you show not just how she was shaped as a person, but the struggles she goes through - that mix of confidence and ability when she's acting on her instincts and feelings, as well as the hesitancy when she listens to her own fears. And it shows the effect Dexter has on her, and the spiral she's thrown into as a result. Deb's the best reason to watch the show, and you show all the reasons why.
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 23rd, 2013 09:06 am (UTC)
Thank you very much for reccind and commenting Ed! It's a nice feeling to know that you gathered again with other vidders in Cardiff to watch vids together and that I was somehow a part of it too, at least through submitting a vid for premiers.

You know, it's been ages since I wanted to vid that moment with Deb in the parking lot from S4. And then when I finally faced it, I was left contemplating wether to leave the second when Dexter clumsily hugs her, being unable to take her breakdown, or not. I know it's not the last time he does in the actual show, but it feels to me like it is, maybe because it's the last time he initiated it... It is selfish as always, but at least less so than his running after Trinity later on instead of being with his family. And then I stumbled upon those shots of the altar (and Deb and Dex sitting on the opposite sides with Jesus' figure in the center "facing" another of Dexter's victims, and a shot of the moon as a witness to Dexter's night job). It felt like a perfect sequence if put together with that "final" clumsy hug).

My affection for Deb is something I can only try to convey like this... Words escape me if you ask to describe why and how :-) I worry about her maybe more than ever now that she's hitting the bottom on the show and being self-destructive with drugs and random sex, but the most important thing is that I managed to vid her before the show ended. It's important to me because if they ruin the character's path in the finale season it could be a lot harder, and maybe even impossible, for me to find strength to vid Deb later. I already missed my window with one BSG vid idea I had that otherwise could've been an unusual take on UB from Kara's pov... I'm glad I didn't allow it to happen with another show that has such an unstable writing.
lytab5lytab5 on May 26th, 2013 11:52 am (UTC)
Wow! Your video is fantastic.
Thank you so much for sharing; I took the dl. ♥
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 26th, 2013 12:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much for letting me know you enjoyed it! It's such a joy to find that people get moved by the vid! I think there aren't many Deb vids out there and it's a shame - she deserves to be celebrated and seen as a character.

Thanks again! <3
mamaffymamaffy on May 26th, 2013 08:30 pm (UTC)
That's just gorgeous and it moved me. Now I can't wait for the last season to start.
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on May 26th, 2013 11:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for your feedback! :-) An honest emotional response is the best kind of praise any vidder can get! And yeah, I want to see what's next in the final season of Dexter too. and I'm quite worried about Deb's character. The last trailer confirms that drugs and random sex is her way of dealing with what happened, and it makes me sad... I would really prefer not to see her getting self-destructive and suicidal.
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m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on June 4th, 2013 09:21 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! Yes, Dexter as a show has a very different kind of beauty, occasionally. He-he. Deb tends to feel things deeply so it's a golden mine I think - attempting to convey it through vidding. I'm happy you think the song's fitting. It had been running through my head for months before I had time to sit down and vid it, but yeah I knew long ago that it could be a great Deb vid song ))). So cool that you enjoyed! :-)
M: Dexter motherfucking princessspankulert on June 2nd, 2013 09:48 am (UTC)
Loved watching this vid on the big screen. You did such a great job capturing deb's body language and her journey throughout the show <3
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on June 4th, 2013 09:25 am (UTC)
Oh thank you for the feedback! Deb has such a beautiful soul... and it's reflected in body language, facial expressions and ways in which she faces difficult events in her life. It was a dream-like experience to vid her. I kind of fear thinking of this being shown on a big screen but I also would love to have been there. I hope next time I'll manage to attend vidukon! :-)
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m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on June 4th, 2013 09:27 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! I'm so glad the vid resonates with people! I love Deb's character.

I slightly shifted some of my editing habits over the last two vids I think, and it's fun to explore where it takes me. :-)
ghanima sunghanimasun on June 14th, 2013 02:46 am (UTC)
This is gorgeous. It's wonderful to see her have such a great video just about her. Reminded me how much I love Deb!
m_a_r_i_k_sm_a_r_i_k_s on June 14th, 2013 10:28 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for sharing your impressions! I love Deb to bits too... she's basically the reason I watch this show :-)