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29 August 2007 @ 10:18 am
BSG vid: 24  

This is my first vid from Kara’s pov, an attempt to see the world from her head, to feel it from her heart. It was never easy or painless to try and understand both of my two pilots, but then, that’s one of the reasons I keep trying and become even more convinced that the game is worth the candle.

 

Personal thanks to brokenmnemonic for driving me crazy by his disbelief in Kara/ lack of faith in her feelings towards Lee.

Song:
24
Artist: Jem
Spoilers: up to episode 3x18 ‘The Son Also Rises’

 

Characters: Kara, Lee, Bill, Helo, Anders, Kat
Notes: They say some people feel their death’s approach in advance. They also say,  that it’s a common experience to mentally play over your own life a few hours, if not minutes before the moment comes. How did Kara Thrace feel, what was she thinking about?..

Size: 46,6 mb

Download link: megaupload

YouTube: here 

 

Comments are always appreciated :).

 

 
 
 
Dayln: [BSG] - Kara - erase/rewindgigglemonster on August 29th, 2007 08:45 am (UTC)
WOW!
That was awesome!
This is such a fun song to vid to and you did a really amazing job with it!
I loved the use of the still images and the black and white, those effects really added to it!
I also really enjoyed the way you showed her different relationships and friendships with everyone, Helo and Adama especially! Oh Kara, *clutches heart*
Great job!
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 10:03 am (UTC)
Thank you for watching and leaving feedback :)
This song is great indeed - actually, your comment made me curious, so I went to your lj and am now downloading the big version of The Power Of Good-bye, the vid's wonderful! :) Next one will be 24 to SPN and I guess I won't stop until I get all your work watched, or at least the most part of it. You're a good vidder, I soo liked your manner of editing, flashes and these changes of light and shadows... I'm very intrigued.
arielmoondance: Fight til we can'tarielmoondance on August 29th, 2007 02:23 pm (UTC)
OMG Kick ass awesome vid! You rock!
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 10:04 am (UTC)
Thanks, I'm glad you liked it :)
The Proverbial Bull in a China Shop...: Kara isn't brokensabaceanbabe on August 29th, 2007 05:00 pm (UTC)
My God, this is an incredible video. I don't think I've seen a finer one... Your use of speed changes and the timing and throwing in stills and the overlays and other effects to emphasize the emotional tone. I bow to your mastery.

And now I'm off to watch for about the dozenth time. :D

Thank you for this gift.
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 10:20 am (UTC)
My God, this is an incredible video. I don't think I've seen a finer one...

I think you're exaggerating, but anyway, it's flattering to hear, thank you :) I'm trying to improve my editing with every piece of work and vidmaking's always been about a combination of music, rhythm, lyrics of the song and _storytelling for me. The gift is all yours and anybody else's who's willing to share bsg characters' emotional turmoil with me in such a way. It's a great pleasure.
thrace_adams: shipping Kara Leethrace_adams on August 29th, 2007 05:28 pm (UTC)
This was an absolutely fantastic vid. One of the best kara/Lee vids I've seen in a while. Good for Broken for driving you crazy enough to make it :) He needs to show some more Kara love LOL. I fav'd it on youtube, but would love a copy on my hard drive and cannot for the life of me get axifile to download it properly can you help me please? Thanks a bunch, this was awesome!
m_a_r_i_k_s: &m_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 12:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you for commenting :) I've uploaded the vid's big version for you:
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=CW9IP13Y I hope megaupload works fine.
I know Broken loves Kara to pieces :) , that's not even a question, it's just that he always doubts her love to Lee, witch woke an incredible urge in me to do impossible things to bring out the undertones of how she feels.. I can't even compare the level of emotional connection with the one she has(had) with Anders or Zak. With Lee it's... *epic*.. dare I say? It's the vital energy that keeps her afloat (doesn't matter she's been trying to deny it or hide).

Btw, I love your icon :)
(no subject) - thrace_adams on August 30th, 2007 06:34 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - m_a_r_i_k_s on September 1st, 2007 12:46 pm (UTC) (Expand)
canadiangirl_86 on August 29th, 2007 06:25 pm (UTC)
Whoa. Your vids are so amazing because of your incredible attention to detail. You fit so much into such a short period of time.

And it's awesome how closely you fit the scenes to the lyrics, it's so completely Kara. Especially matching "please do it for me" to Lee putting her picture up. *SOB*

I really loved your inclusion of Helo, as well. It's a shame we never saw any of his mourning after her death considering how close he was to Kara.

Excellent. This must've taken you such a long time to make!
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 01:29 pm (UTC)
Thank you for your great feedback :)
The details, such as the pills Kara gives to Kat before her death or Adama's favorite ship smashed into pieces as some kind of hideous symbol... they're driving me nuts at times, I want to stop 'waisting' my time on such things, but then I discover I physically can't, I'm already kind of addicted to little things and connections between them as between the parts of some people's souls; touches, personal items, random looks and movements of lips or eyelashes.

"Please do it for me" is like "please, let me go... or "please, be free of me", which is absolutely in Kara's character. The fact that Lee most definitely failed her hopes in letting go is a different story :)

I always loved Helo's interactions with Kara, it's a pity they didn't have a chance to share more of good quality screen time this season.

It's shameful to say how much time it took me to make this vid - more than two months, actually.

(no subject) - canadiangirl_86 on August 31st, 2007 06:35 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Natasha: Kara- awesomebrightest_blue on August 29th, 2007 07:16 pm (UTC)
Wonderful vid! I can't stop watching!
m_a_r_i_k_s: smilem_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 10:47 am (UTC)
Thank you!
cheryladcherylad on August 30th, 2007 02:14 am (UTC)
This was glorious... amazing.. beautiful ..magnetic .. mesmerizing...

Just totally totally wow!
m_a_r_i_k_s: OTPm_a_r_i_k_s on August 30th, 2007 10:40 am (UTC)
How did this vid manage to earn so many tasty epithets.. :) Thanks, I'm really glad you enjoyed the ride.
Tametamefarrar on August 30th, 2007 05:16 am (UTC)
This was an incredible video!! I am in awe of your skill as well as the video!

WOW!! thank Sabaceanbabe for pimping it..she has great taste and all I can say is...WOW...I think my jaw has yet to come up from the floor....
m_a_r_i_k_s: &m_a_r_i_k_s on August 31st, 2007 09:05 pm (UTC)
It's good to hear you enjoyed watching it so much. *shines* Hope your jaw doesn't hurt because of my experiments in vidmaking ;)
brokenmnemonic: Pilotsbrokenmnemonic on August 30th, 2007 05:24 am (UTC)
Well, when I finally got home late last night, I downloaded this vid - and I watched it four times last night, and twice again this morning. How good is it? Good enough that I'm still rewatching it trying to take enough of it in so that I can comment on it coherently. It's 6.16am here, and I'm watching it again before work. It's that good a vid.

I occasionally get asked why I'm so hard on the things I do - the fic I write, the icons I make, the vids I put together, that sort of thing. Part of it's the natural critic in me, but a lot of it's because I know how much I've got to learn yet, how much more there is that can be done in the fields I'm creative in. This video just set a dozen new standards for things I'd love to be able to do, and every time I watch it I'm staggered. There's so much you've done in here - video effects, timing, clip treatment, overlays, merges, some sort of superb edit that's let you take chunks of clips and overlay them on others like masks...

The video itself is amazingly tightly focussed, with a barrage of visual imagery that skitters and pulses with energy, focussed on the story you're telling with it. I tend to find that videos I think of as "good" have some things in common, and one is how they manage to blend footage that isn't commonly used into the story they're telling effectively. Too many videos are just the same clips from canon, recycled to different tunes. Well, I think this one had so much footage that I've not seen used in vids before that I need to rewatch it another half dozen times just to try and work out where it all came from - assuming I don't continue to get sucked into the "wow" factor generated by the vid and lose track of what I was doing again.

You even managed to include Anders without me loathing the sight of him - that alone is a success of epic proportions in my book ;)

I need to go to work now, but I'm going to have this vid on the brain all day, I think.
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 31st, 2007 10:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you :) You know your opinion means much, right? And it's not just because of the the fact that this vid was made on the wave of my emotional urge to plunge in Kara's head and heart generated by your wounded state of disbelief. It's also because you can feel for pilots deeply and understand them so well, especially when you're not blinded by Lee's jealousy. And then, there's this natural critic in you as you said - and that means you can be hard not only on the things you create, but on other people's work as well. Hard in a positive sense of the word. I really like that, and I appreciate that.

This video just set a dozen new standards for things I'd love to be able to do, and every time I watch it I'm staggered.

I'm glad it works like a pushing mechanism for you or some kind of source of inspiration. Because that's how your work affects me, fics as well as some of the vids :)

There's so much you've done in here - video effects, timing, clip treatment, overlays, merges, some sort of superb edit that's let you take chunks of clips and overlay them on others like masks...

That's how my stubbornness works: I give the vid an impossible amount of time, squeeze as much as I can out of each sec of the song, try to use the rhythm and lyrics as means to gide the story. Then I get pissed at myself because of how long it takes and promise to make something simpler and slower next time, yet it never happens.
Video effects are just instruments to show the most important, I'm always afraid of overusing them and thus preventing the viewer from seeing what's behind most of them, the story with many crossing details.

Sometimes my head is about to explode because of all the little things and compactness of information+emotions I'm trying to deliver. I get tired after such vids and feel like I need to take a break. But it's impossible to take a leave from pilots. If it's not the vid I'm working on, then it's the images and some importunate ideas and thoughts fleshing in my head :)

I tend to find that videos I think of as "good" have some things in common, and one is how they manage to blend footage that isn't commonly used into the story they're telling effectively.

You're getting good at this, I've noticed. Scenes of Elosha's death, some footage of the kid looking into the camera on the floor with dead people around... ;)

You didn't say anything specific about the clips and shots, but I guess it's the side-effect of my bad habit to put too much into each and every few seconds of the vid.

You even managed to include Anders without me loathing the sight of him - that alone is a success of epic proportions in my book ;)

I was trying to be objective on this one. To ignore Anders' presence in Kara's life and his role would be equal to choosing the road of self-deception.. as well as making more out of it than it really is.
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leelustleelust on August 30th, 2007 07:36 am (UTC)
Таааааккк.....
Сначала вопрос, который мне почему-то грызет - edited by - это специальная ошибка или?
Теперь по теме - это ты, как я понимаю, спецом не сказала, по какой песне делала? Потому что это одна из наилюбимейших песен у мне сейчас и на неё есть пара клипов по Суперам, не плохих клипов и она смыслово так подходит для обоих моих фандомов, аж страшно.
По клипу - ты опять заставляешь мне ругаться матом. Не могу я сильные эмоции иначе выражать, словарный запас у меня ограничен. Это даже не под дых... это чуть выше и левее...
И момент выбрала... а глаза, её глаза под строчки as clear as cristal! И их глаза друг над другом, эти пронзительные взгляды...
Из повторов строчек почему-то больше всех затронуло wasted my time и её уход, когда она оставила Ли с кхеДикхе. Вот уж точно wasted her time.
B? конечно, просить Ли to live free это как-то... я не знаю... из области фантастики?
Что я тут буду словесно распинаться, не умею красиво говорить, лучше ещё раз посмотрю. Марафон с просмотром "незнамоскокаразпокругу" ночью даже отодвинул просмотр допов к Суперам - по-моему это о многом говорит :)
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 31st, 2007 11:25 pm (UTC)
В чем ты ошибку-то углядела, я не поняла?

Ну да, спецом. Я просто предупреждала тебя, что песню эту ты знаешь прекрасно. И я знаю, что есть клипы по Суперам, видела). В любом случае она у меня прежде всего всегда будет ассоциироваться с Карой. То есть как только я ее услышала с пол года назад, сразу картинки в голове из Мейлстрома и рваные клочки из ее уродливой жизни, которая как сплошная кровоточащая присыпанная солью рана.. что не видно. Ну и слова ни к кому так не подходят как к ней... то есть здесь попадание просто в 101 из 100.
Кстати словарный запас надо расширять, если хочешь такие клипы смотреть).
Глаза под строчки as clear as cristal... ты помнишь серию или ты ее всего 1 раз смотрела? Так вот сам момент - это когда она произносит фразу, ставшую уже своего рода символом "I guess that's all we'll ever be"... И ведь на самом деле это чуть ли не самая красивая и долгожданная в эмоциональном плане по отношению к Ли фраза, которую Кара когда-либо произносила.
Потому что говоря это, она как бы признает, что они не просто могли бы быть бОльшим.. а что она *хотела бы стать с ним большим*.. что она жалеет... и это впервые - осознанное желание и сожаление. Поэтому Ли и смотрит в ответ совершенно непонимающим взглядом. То есть он эту фразу читает буквально... да, действительно "это всё, чем они когда-либо будут" готов согласиться мысленно он.. но почему такая горечь в словах Кары, в ее усмешке и в ее взгляде каторжном - он не понимает, это его сбивает с толку, отсюда такая растерянность в глазах, и ответом молчание.
Эх, за что я обожаю бсг в частности... каждая вторая фраза главных персов требует подводного трактования чуть ли не задом наперед...

Вот уж точно wasted her time.

Да, только тогда, увы, она видела свои действия как меньшее зло из того что может причинить.

конечно, просить Ли to live free это как-то... я не знаю... из области фантастики?

Нет, для Кары это не из области фантастики. То есть с ее позиции это очень естественная фраза. Этого она и хотела больше всего перед смертью, чтобы он освободился от нее, не держал, не мучился, и продолжил жить свободно и счастливо...
Возможно свободнее и счастливее. Ее "Please, just let me go.." сквозь слезы и молящую улыбку за две секунды до ухода это и есть желанное ею to live free для него.
То что для Ли это нереально, это другой разговор, но в клипе взгляд Кары прежде всего.., все подается через ее призму восприятия.

Я рада, что это удар под дых.. тем более левее :)) Все ж таки несколько месяцев над клипом должны давать себя знать). Я настолько вымотана эмоционально и умственно после него.. могла бы по каждому третьему кадру написать немало после такого марафона. БСГ не перестает меня удивлять своей глубиной, как эмоциональной, так и интеллектуальной, я от пары моментов в клипе.. которые в процессе создания как будто сами себя нашли, сидела в ауте. Во время просмотра на один и даже два раза такое точно не заметишь и не перекинешь мостик параллелей, но клипмейкинг бсг тем и интересен, что детали находятся совершенно неожиданные и ошеломляющие.
(no subject) - leelust on September 1st, 2007 05:45 am (UTC) (Expand)
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Woah!bop_radar on August 30th, 2007 10:20 am (UTC)
OMG, m_a_r_i_k_s!!! *wipes tears* Wow. Woah. *sob* Um, ok, I need some time to work on the feedback, but wow, that was incredibly moving. I'm like ACTUALLY CRYING HERE. You brought her death back in a way that totally left me shellshocked all over again...

The bit that got to me the most, for some reason, was the shot you used of Kara in the hall of photos where you can just see Lee coming into focus behind her. I'd never paid much attention to that shot before but it had so much emotional resonance here in this context and I got all teared up.

I promise more coherent feedback (and reccing!) later. *runs for tissues*
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on August 31st, 2007 11:43 pm (UTC)
Can I join you at crying? I can be a really good company in this field of activity sometimes :)
I'd say sorry, but such a strong emotional response is kinda what I'm after while vidmaking. So cry, Boppy, there's nothing bad about crying especially when we're talking about BSG, pilots).

The bit that got to me the most, for some reason, was the shot you used of Kara in the hall of photos where you can just see Lee coming into focus behind her. I'd never paid much attention to that shot before but it had so much emotional resonance here in this context and I got all teared up.

Goood. :) I have a few moments in this vid I like the most, that's one of them. I think lyrics add to the sting.
(no subject) - bop_radar on September 1st, 2007 11:07 am (UTC) (Expand)
latteaddict: Black & white Karalatteaddict on August 30th, 2007 11:48 am (UTC)
Such a fantastic video! I can't stop watching it. The effects you use are amazing and the story you told makes me feel all achy and sad for Kara and for those she left behind. I'm now going to watch it again!
m_a_r_i_k_s: Kara_S2m_a_r_i_k_s on September 1st, 2007 12:28 pm (UTC)
Thanks for your feedback :)
Maelstrom was hard to watch for me not even because I knew those were the last moments of the season we could see her (I was 99% sure she'd come back), but because it was obvious that she felt her time to go away was coming... and 'cause of how how regretful she was for things she had or hadn't done for certain people, how she was silently saying good-bye to everybody. And then of course, those who were to stay without her.., that was even more difficult to go through emotionally.
sache8: Helosache8 on August 31st, 2007 03:02 am (UTC)
Great edit, and a good song choice for that story arc. I love that song - have since the first time I ever heard it. :-)
m_a_r_i_k_s: ya know..m_a_r_i_k_s on September 1st, 2007 12:33 pm (UTC)
Thank you :) The song is great, first time I heard it - I instantly thought of Kara and it luckily ended up being used for a vid, 'cause I had a couple of others in mind.
Dualbunny: Kara/Lee - arrowdualbunny on September 2nd, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)
Very very cool work. Loved the back and forth through time, and all of the incredibly solid emotional resonance you packed into it. :} Oh, Kara...
nereis: bsg - la sonrisa de starbuck_nereis_ on September 6th, 2007 03:13 pm (UTC)
I think is the best vid I've seen of this two ever. I found it by youtube and came here to download it immediately.
I don't know, it's jus great. So thanks for posting and sharing :)